Thursday, March 22, 2007

Growing

"Don't feel guilty about leisure time." I read that in someone's blog the other day. So I finally went down to Home Depot and bought pumpkin seeds. I've always wanted to plant a pumpkin. I came home with tomatoe and sunflower seeds too! I enjoy planting things.

About Cody

I just got a phone call. I don't feel like talking about Pumpkins anymore.

Sometimes its hard to know what to write and what not to write in this blog, but I'll say that its hard to watch your son make mistakes. Especially when you love them so much. It seems his job is in danger again...I don't know if he'll lose it or not. It seems he has the ailment of ADD. He is not on meds...because he doesn't want to take them. I respect that. But he's really having trouble organizing his life...and other issues.

There have been times when Cody was/is heading down a dangerous road...and I really need to trust the Lord. But it is hard. Because I keep thinking...I've never seen God, how do I know he's there? And why would God protect my son. There are thousands of Christian sons who have died in war, in drug overdoses, and in accidents. I don't feel assurance that my prayers will protect my son. (because) God has an ultimate plan for this world...and its not all about me or my son. It's larger than that.

Well..you can see that I'm a limping soldier in Christ. Not as strong as I'd like to be.

4 comments:

Tracey said...

Oh, honey...big hugs to you this morning! We're all limping soldiers at times; in fact, I wish limping were the greatest of my ailments when it comes to faith.

Sharon Lynne said...

Thank you for your kind words. This morning I logged in to delete this post before anyone read it. (having second thoughts). And there was your comment. Perhaps God is telling me to leave it.

I enjoyed viewing the pictures of your new lambs! Your blog reminds me that THE LORD IS OUR SHEPHERD.

The GateKeeper said...

Just letting you know that I pray for your family every day. Cody is the little lamb the Shepherd left the 99 for. And guess what, maybe Cody isn't searching for his way back, yet. The Shepherd, however is, and He finds. He always finds the little lost, limping sheep. Love ya, my friend. Hang in there.

Susan Kelly Skitt said...

Keep keeping on my sister. Be strong in the Lord and the power of His might... He hears those cries of your heart and loves your son even more than you... as a parent that's hard to understand. Our heart aches. I'm the type of person that likes to see things "fixed" right away. What do we do in the "inbetween" times? Keep keeping on. God hears and He cares...
Because He lives, I can face tomorrow... You're in my thoughts and prayers.
Living the adventure,
Susan